between a rock & a hard place....

so i feel like i am stuck right now...having been sent home and covered since was not feeling well after returning to work after surgery i now feel like i 'shouldn't' feel well and should rest...but in reality i am feeling okay but have a terrible headache today and feel like i should have been at work today...and am wishing i was still on wards this month so could work with team i like!

as for other things...specialty is a tough one given my internal struggle between anesthesiology and obstetrics/gynecology for over a year and actually almost two years now; not to mention that i am already matched into anesthesia and don't know what to do now about...well...pretty much everything. heart says one thing. mind says another. then which do i listen to???

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