postcallandfeelingit

soforthisentryiamnotgoingtotypeanyspaceswhichisactuallyhardformesinceitouchtypeandamsousedtodoingit.firetruckoutafterfireworks.
soiamexhausted,headachethatissurelytensionsinceitisalloverandiskillingmeandthatnothingishelpingitgetanybetter.sotoldmyfirstfamily
memberofapatientlastnightthattheirlovedonewasgoingtodie.cannotbelievehowdifficultitistonotgivefalsehopeespeciallyastheyareinobvious
denialandyouwanttobesupportivebutyouknowthepatientisnotgoingtogetbetter.iguessthatissomethingeverynewdoctorneedstogothroughandexperience
ifeellikeiwantotquiteverytimeiamoncall.mustbethecombinationofbeingtiredandlearningandnotknowingeverythingiamdoingyetandbeingtired
sotobediamgoingonthispostcalldaythatiamnotreallymuchbetterrestedsoletshopethatbysaturdayformynextcallthatisnotthecaseandiammorerested.

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